The curious case of the dead headphones and missing running mojo.
As a knowledge worker, I’m behind a computer screen consuming media for most of the day. It’s constant stimulation: DMs, email, meetings, phone calls, etc. Going out to run in the morning or at lunch is my way to free the body and the mind. I’m suddenly out of the chair, away from the dings and beeps, running free down the trails with time as the only constraint.
When running started to suck
I love this free feeling. It’s what drew me to running many years ago. A couple months ago, though, I found that feeling wasn’t there during the run, and I didn’t feel rejuvenated or empowered afterwards either. I couldn’t figure out why. Instead, I felt mentally exhausted, and it kept piling on day after day. The joy was disappearing. What was happening?
The case of the dead headphones and missing mojo
Deep in a training block, taking a long retreat to reevaluate my perspective and purpose wasn’t really an option. Instead, I just kept trucking along like a rusty old robot in desperate need of something to light my soul. Then one day, I went to grab my headphones and realized I forgot to charge them. No big deal. I enjoy running without them, so I just decided to go.
The accidental solve
Arriving home an hour later, I could not tell you where I went or what I thought about. My mind was blank for the entire hour. I just settled into the grooves on the trail, went where my feet wanted to go, and came home with that old spark of freedom and clarity I used to have. Whoa! What happened? Was it the trail? Was it my energy that day? Some superfood or special supplement I had unknowingly taken?
Then it hit me. I had been using my runs to consume things, media to be specific, trying to “maximize my time”, caught in the productivity trap. Audiobooks, podcasts, phone calls, music. My mind was getting that dopamine stimulation all day long at work and now my runs, which had previously been a break, were part of the stimulation tornado too. I’d been sucked in.
Reclaiming running free
Realizing this, I started leaving the headphones at home, any expectations alongside them. I didn’t have anything planned to think about. I just ran and let my mind do whatever it wanted to do. Daydream? Sure. Brainstorm about work? Sure. Nothing? Sure. My runs were once again my mind’s playground, and I felt energized and free.
Media while running: In or out? Or can a happy balance be found?
I’ve always been someone who takes big pendulum shifts of change in my life. That cheesy pizza last night upset my stomach, so today I’m cutting out dairy completely. Terrible choice by the way, pizza is magical for runners, dairy too. I’ve come a long way in realizing that I need gradual change not drastic change. This experience also fell into that category.
It was drastic at first. No media while running. But now, I’m in a much better place. I still don’t do podcasts or audiobooks, but I did reintroduce music. Anything that enhances, not detracts, from the running experience is what I’m looking for. Cue Bertha by the Grateful Dead for an easy trail run. I’m looking for a way to escape the noise, the stimulation, and business of modern life. I’m looking for the pure form of something, something that connects me to nature, to myself, and makes me feel whole afterwards. If music enhances that, then plug me in.
How to reevaluate your own media while running relationship
As a coach and runner, I’m always looking to fulfill mind, body, and spirit: the holistic running experience. I want to set myself and my athletes up for long-term success and enjoyment in the sport. As I look back at this experience with media while running, I realize that sometimes you just need to reevaluate what you’re doing and why. I don’t want to lose the joy and freedom I find in running. When that joy and freedom disappeared, it was a big red flag for me. Both my performance and my mental health suffered. If you’re feeling this way, take account of how you’re treating your mind during runs. Are you giving it the space it needs? Are the things you’re doing during your runs serving you or hindering you?
For me, I needed to reclaim that calming space that running gives me. I’m a more free and peaceful version of myself on and off the trail by giving my brain some time to just be, without the headphones. If you’re the opposite and find that consuming media truly adds to your running and life, great, keep going! Figuring out how you want to feel before, during, and after running can start with you asking yourself “what’s here for me today?”. Or, as in my case, with forgetting to charge your headphones and involuntarily reclaiming the calm, peace, and simplicity of a daily run and realizing what you’ve been missing all along.
Ryan Williams is a parent, proud dog dad, athlete and coach who believes running is a metaphor for life. He specializes in forming positive bonds with runners of all ages, distances, and abilities from couch-to-5k to ultramarathon.